Okay, let's try this again...

It feels unbelievably audacious to think I still have a spot at this table, but here I am. I haven't posted on this internet space of mine for a year now and well that seems just downright disrespectful. I'm not sure who's still out there, or who remembers this space but regardless I'm just going to explain what in the actual fuck happened to me.

1) University 
Not sure if I need to explain much further than that. During year one I had tons of free time and blogging was an absolute breeze. What else was I doing? Then the rest of university happened and I simply have not had the time. Not only did I not have the time for it but...

2) I fell out of love 
I honestly fell out of love with this whole blogging thing. I was letting numbers play with me head. I started photography more in my school, extracurricular and other aspects of real life and writing and taking pictures really began to feel like a chore. Writing and photography is fun...when you don't have to always be writing and taking pictures. This didn't feel like a hobby anymore it felt like something else I was forcing myself to do.

3) I didn't feel genuine
I started to write and edit in a way I knew would get the most comments and most shares/likes or whatever. I dreaded writing a blog because I dreaded the promotion of it, but this time around I truly just want to write and share. That's all.

But here's why I'm back:
The last year free of this space has given me a lot of breathing room. I've experienced SO much throughout this last year outside of the internet I want to return. I remember how therapeutic it was writing my thoughts on here and speaking about things and hearing back from people. I remember how awesome the community vibe was. How much I still love doing these things can never ever die and I want to be back.
And life is WAY too short to not be indulging in something that you love.

So, here I am again.
And if you all are willing to welcome me with open arms I'd appreciate it because well I'm v fragile rn.

ha, jk.

no but really.

okay, talk to you soon.