Wednesday, 27 August 2014

An Open Letter: Speak Up.

It's a bit of an enigma isn't it. Wanting something so desperately you don't get it. A weird paradox I find myself stuck in far too many times.
This summer, my gosh, this summer. The adventures & misadventures. The smiles and the tears that I've gone through this summer is entire other blog post, or novel, but goddamn this summer I think I learned the hard way one of the most important things I've ever learned.

After a sleepless night, tears and cookie dough and mounds of regret it's going to take months to dig through my god have I learned something I know I won't soon forget. You have to ask for the things you want. You need to be explicit with what you want from life. If you want to see someone, my goodness drop them a text and let them know you desire their company. There's a lot of perishable things in life we're so keen on begging for but when it comes to people, something ALWAYS gets in the way of keeping them around. Losing people... sucks. The teenage writer in me would like to describe the emptiness, desperation for sociopathic tendencies and behaviours that comes with losing someone, but words fail me. All I can say really is... IT SUCKS. Especially when you know there's SO much more you could've done to keep them around. So many more times you could've said yes, stopped panicking, just invited them to the movie. Instead you let this fear inside you rule your thoughts, and you let 'em go. I don't know if second chances are a thing with people. I'm yet to experience that. The opportunities lost when you lose a person far exceed when you lose anything material.

I don't think I've experienced a worst feeling to date, and I think it's been branded into the sides of my frontal lobe to speak up at the this point. The momentary panic that comes with asking, is nothing, and believe me when I say NOTHING, on the hours upon hours of sadness & regret you feel having let that person slip right through your fingers.

This is an off the cuff blabber of a post, because I've just lost an entire night's sleep and have a lot of thoughts that I can't help sharing. Honestly, though: For yourself, and the love of all that is good when you love someone, let 'em know.



  1. Wow! I'm impressed. This is so honest and open, and that's great. You are so right.

  2. You're an amazingly eloquent speaker.
    Very honest and simple and no doubt relatable.
    Sorry that you feel this ache, I wish you all the smiles and cookie dough in the world


    | Jay |

  3. I've experienced a thing like this and I agree with you that you should tell someone if you love them. I believe in second chances and I think everyone deserves it. Great post and keep up the good work.


  4. Oh Leah, you got me much too absorbed in every single word. I know the exact feeling - I'm not exactly one to know how to keep people around for long. Sometimes I doubt my supposed better judgement and struggle to find the balance for previous what if's. It's such a messy thing, to be a part of such messy human nature.
    Just want to let you know that your posts are as real as can be, and I wholeheartedly appreciate that. If you'd ever like to chat, I'm always here x

  5. Aw. Thanks for being so honest. Human nature sucks. I reckon we will all get to the stage where we simply don't care anymore. Don't go chasing what if's.


  6. Great post! I’m Jenna btw, I’ve got a little blog about positivity and all things motivational, self-help, beauty, fashion, and lifestyle. I would love if you checked it out! :)
    x Jenna

  7. This is an amazing post, and so relatable. Thanks for writing it! x

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  8. This was amazing, it reminded me that I'm not alone. Stay strong!

  9. Seriously, I've been through this and I know exactly what you are talking about. Stay Strong! and don't give up, no matter what! Against all odds and what others are saying, believe in what you want with all your heart and it will happen! Trust me! Read "The Secret" it helped me so much during this time.

    xo, Kina

  10. hi there sweetie. this post is indeed great. and yes, speaking up is the first step to having a life of no regrets.

    xx Janelle
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  11. I really do find it hard to someone i love you, its not pride or anything ,just sacred of the reply that may follow. lovely post.


  12. That an honest and open post, so impressive!
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  13. I feel like everyone can relate to this in their own way. And maybe you've given someone that nudge to fight for their someone.
    It might be me :P
    Thanks Leah <3

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  15. This was inspirational and much needed. I love how you can transition from one experience to a more meaningful life lesson. Keep up the beautiful writing girl :)

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