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Thursday, 24 April 2014

I'm Grateful.



For something so important, it far too often takes a backseat to being unhappy, complaining and self-depreciation.
I've just completed my first year of university. I can still remember the day I published THIS post about when I first moved and cannot believe that the first year has already come and gone.

Through this year, I've been very vocal about my general distaste for school.
Not learning, but school. The very last drop of motivation I had to be force fed irrelevant information has evaporated. I love learning. I absolutely love learning about things I care about, but am absolute rubbish at allowing myself to swallow my pride and eat up economic theories (that make no sense) and the history of ground beef. I don't give a damn about any of it, which has made this first year quite the world wind of positive and negative emotions.

Nonetheless, now that it's done and gone and I've been able to step out of the context of school and look at it from the outside in, I'm grateful to be here. Not for the information I've "learnt" and less than enthusiastically regurgitated onto exam papers from my professors but the social and real life experiences I've had this year.

I've moved out of home, gotten my own place, done a small amount of independent travelling, gotten moderately drunk and met incredible people that I'll forever be grateful I had in my life, even if just for a few months. I've met some less than desirables, loved and lost, argued and fought, complained about noisy parties, developed a slight hatred for country music and the list could go on and on.

I'm more grateful than I've ever been for the amazing people I've met this year, the laughs, the hugs and the conversations we've had. I've developed a bond with these wonderful ladies in my life unlike any I've ever had before. I remember the days we moved in desperately trying to understand how we'd made it this far, and now we're on the final days saying our goodbyes. I don't know what the future holds for us as a group or individuals but I'm more blessed and happy than I can describe to have had them in my life even if they're presence was only something I'm meant to experience for a season.
I won't lie and say tears didn't run PROFUSELY when it came time for the goodbyes, and the hugs were endless but they meant so much. I'm just everlastingly grateful to these wonderful people and having had them in my life. The bond you develop with roommates supersedes all friendships you've had before. You're thrust into a new, scary environment with new people and you're forced to navigate it all with them. You're forced into this supportive, sisterly role that is definitely unlike any high-school "bestie".

I've learned this year, and I've grown and for that I'll be endlessly grateful. I wouldn't say I've gotten a taste of real life, because my entire life has been real. Not a single moment of it, much to my sadness, has been fake. I got a taste of a different life that has opened my eyes, mind and soul to so much hope.

I cannot say that after this first year of university I'm any closer to knowing what to do with my life, or that I have no regrets because also reflecting on this year has allowed me too see the PLETHORA of bad decisions I've made, but things have changed. I've changed which I think is one of the best possible outcomes that I could get from this year.

I'm not sure if the madness is over, or if it's just begun but summer is here y'all. Summer 2014 has arrived, and I'm grateful still for what's yet to come.


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8 comments:

  1. The goodbyes are always sad especially if you're saying farewell to people who matter the most but hopefully, you'll meet even more great people and have numerous adventures next year as well. ^_^ Enjoy summer!
    Olive Needs Popeye

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  2. Here's to friends, new places, new adventures and memories that are made to last. Congrats Leah!! Soak it all in before the next major event.

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  3. aw! love this post. i totally understand and pretty much relate with what you wrote. i love it.
    here's to new adventures this summer. i'm certainly looking forward to them myself :)
    ~Abigail
    http://sweetergetsthejourneyblog.blogspot.com/

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  4. I think the madness has just begun :p but ENJOY it :D xx

    LauraThinksAbout

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  5. I am so proud of you Leah, the fact that you can take a step back and look at your year, admit your mistakes and appreciate your achievements. You're doing it right!
    Your maturity and thoughtfulness shines through to me in your words and I am more than certain that you will eventually find the path you are meant to take, and try not to stress to much int he mean time!
    I am excited for what is to come for you too, and I know you will make the most of it :)
    Lots of love xx

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  6. Congrats on finishing your first year! College really helped me find myself/grow up. And with the social anxiety I usually have, it's great to be immersed, and kinda forced, into an environment where socializing is practically survival. Otherwise, it's just no fun and you don't get the experience you deserve.

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  7. Again, congratulations! The first is always the hardest because you need to adjust and cope. But I'm glad you made it :3 Just keep on pushing yourself no matter how hard! School is never easy but just think of the spoils! (talking like a pirate, aye?)

    kiss kiss,
    http://ohpenda.com

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  8. Hey Leah! beautiful photography! Be blessed :)

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