Do we really want all those things in life we tell ourselves we want?
I've recently been thinking about this a lot. Throughout my life, it's fair to say I've done a decent amount of travelling. I've lived in about 3 different counties, gone to only God knows how many different schools. Every summer I left to spend time with family in another country. I've always wished for a more stable life, to be able to stay one place for an extended amount of time so I can feel like I live & belong in that place/country/town.
But in that same breath, every break from school I get I plan a trip. One a weekend I go to Quebec, next weekend I leave again to spend time in Toronto with family. The following weekend for reading week, I plan to leave again. Christmas I go back to Jamaica, and I'm trying to even co-ordinate a trip to do over my Spring Break with the infamous Domo & something over the summer with Lisa. If stability is all I've wanted for so long, why am I still doing so much all-over-the-place living? I now have the opportunity to just STAY PUT & I'm still not doing that.
I think it's natural for us to do what's comfortable. The idea of staying at school over a break & not leaving...actually makes me quite uncomfortable & nervous. Making me think that maybe stability & staying one place for an extended amount of time really isn't what I want. I don't want to feel stagnated at any point in time. Having something to look forward to, and continuing to swim is what makes my life worth living. Whenever I've stayed one place for too long, I've gotten quite down & depressed about it.
I still believe stability is a major part of a persons life & necessary...but I'm beginning to think it's simply not a feasible thing for me to do anymore.
I'm too used to moving. It's comfortable. It's familiar.
I'm curious what cities/countries are you all from? Let me know!
x Leah Symonne x